Desperately Seeking Balance
Finding balance is complicated, as I’ve discovered over the last few months. I don’t blog as often as I want to simply because I have no time; trying to find time for all of the important things and people in my life is a weekly task. Days pass without a switching my laptop on. I have 8 unopened issues of my favourite magazine – The Economist – sitting here waiting to be read but no time. When you don’t even have a spare 22 minutes to spend ogling Dr Sheldon Cooper on E4, something is wrong with your life. Fact.
Yesterday, I returned home from work after 22h00. Too tired and too late to eat a proper meal, I made some nettle tea and ate a few pieces of fudge. Followed by a hot shower, I found myself in bed with the lights out a few minutes later. I’d be lying if this was a one-off. How do you balance life? I miss writing and connecting with readers as often as I used to. Some of my favourite bloggers have 2-3 children, husbands and jobs. How do they do it? I still have things to blog about from last year whilst I was still a Parisienne and countless afternoon teas enjoyed here in London. I’m exhausted but I’m happy. There isn’t one thing in my life I’m unhappy with. I don’t recall ever being able to say that. My personal life makes me happy. I worry a little about lack of free time affecting that aspect of my life but so far, so good. The reality is that I’ve evolved. I’ve had a hell of a year and been through so much. Somehow I managed to get through it all and still have a smile on my face. I feel differently, I see things differently and I’m trying to figure out how to express that on my wee blog.
I’m not very good at just sitting doing nothing. I can sit and read, sit and watch television but the idea of just sitting meditating makes me anxious. This morning I woke up at my customary 06h30 with a plan – sign up for yoga classes. I haven’t been to yoga for a while and I need a few sessions per week just to mellow out and have some me time. I’ve been so troubled with trying to balance everything and everyone, that I forgot about my own balanced state of mind. This weekend is the perfect start to attempting life balance: visit loved ones today and tomorrow, go shopping for some summer dresses (highly optimist), cook, plan Paris (three weeks to go…) and catch up with my favourite series. Relax and breathe…
Do you ever feel overwhelmed? How do you balance love, work, exercise, friends, sleep, travel: life?