I’ve given up sugar again, this time for lent and possibly forever. I have the worst headache you can imagine and my throat feels swollen. All I want to do is to go back to bed because I cannot crave sugar if I’m sleeping, can I? Last night I screamed at my husband for eating chocolate in the house. As I paced up and down, he stared at me with this what-happened-to-my-wife look and nervously laughed while saying “Do you realise what’s going on here? You’re getting angry about chocolate!”. Clearly, I wasn’t going to give in so I stormed off to bed imagining the smell of the chocolate.
This morning, I complained about everything. Every single thing. My husband eventually snapped back and yelled that I’m like a smoker giving up. All I could think is at least a smoker can smell other people’s cigarettes. Needless to say, we’ve spent the day in silence. He’s just left for a walk. I feel bad about how I’m behaving but I really have no control. My head is pounding, my hands are trembling, my neck is sore and all I keep thinking about is making lemon curd and eating the entire contents of the jar before hubby returns. I just made some porridge with chopped banana, pumpkin seeds and some raisins but it’s made me feel worse, and my stomach is spinning. I’m teary, I need a hug but I’m being such a cow, nobody would hug me now.
In addition to the headaches and beeped off husband, I feel so nauseous and sensitive to light. Time to crawl back into bed and pray I wake up in a better mood. What scares me most is that these symptoms are caused by sugar-withdrawal. Sugar!! How can this be possible?
This is it for me and sugar. I can’t do this again. I think my husband will agree.